This gentle, touching and understated piece of writing about the noticing of habitual behaviours, pausing and showing ourselves some love, turned up on my website some days ago.
I thought it so good I asked the author if I could post it here. Thankfully she agreed. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.
I was having such a good time, feeling fine, feeling friendly, being a great big smiling Me. Then She showed up. Annoying, fidgety, restless, looking for attention. I didn’t want her near me. I didn’t want her getting me down. At first I managed to avoid her. But then she showed up everywhere.
So I gave her spoonfulls of Nutella – straight from the jar. It seemed to quieten her down for a bit, but then she was back (and sticky now, all covered in chocolate). I turned towards her. I looked at her and smiled. I sat cross-legged on the floor and gathered her to me. I held her in my lap; felt her breathing; felt me breathing; felt our heart beating. She settled down, and, welcomed, disappeared.
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